30 Day Self- Harm Challenge
Day 5: What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
The urges. Definitly the urges. The overwhelming urge to cut is awful. It makes it so hard to NOT relapse. The urges make me break down and cry. And I also hate the scars after cutting because theyre so hard to hide from others.
30 Day Self Harm Challenge
Day 4: Would you consider yourself addicted?
Not really. I have been able to go without it for four months now. But I do think that the thoughts of cutting and the urges make recovery really hard for me.
30 Day Self Harm Challenge
Day 3: What is your motivation to recover?
The thing that makes me want to recover the most is my friends. I don’t want them to have to see me harm myself because I understand how hard it can be for them.
30 Day Self- Harm Challenge
Day 2: What part of your body is affected the most by it?
My left upper arm.
30 Day Self Harm Challenge
Day 1: How long have you been self harming? How did it start?
I started April of 2011. It started because I had been feeling depressed for a month or so and I started developing thoughts of cutting. Then one night in my room I took a sharp pencil and scratched myself a lot. After that things progressed into worse stuff.
Almost four months without cutting…and yet every single day is a struggle. I can’t keep it up. Everything is becoming too overwhelming and I can’t fight it anymore. The worse part of it all is that I really want it… fuck.
I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of not being able to let go. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. But most of all, I’m tired of just being tired.
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